HERE I AM….

 

 

Through these past few months God has really been doing some life changing things with me. Although, the steps that I’ve had to take wasn’t the most pleasant, or easiest; but HERE I AM. I wanted to give up so many times, that I contemplated walking away from God at some points. Some nights was darker than others, and some nights I couldn’t see past my tears; but HERE I AM. Knowing the plans that God have for my life was just a sprinkle of joy that I received while going through my trails, but sometimes that wasn’t enough for me. I wanted God to just take all the pain away and lift me completely out of my misery; but HERE I AM. As sad as it may sound, I often felt like there was no hope for me in this life; but HERE I AM. 

 

After all the negativity that rushed my way, all the hurts, and mishaps that I’ve experienced along the way; HERE I AM. Better than ever!!! Smiling, as if Christ created a new Heart for me, and implanted in right back into my body. Thanking God everyday just for allowing me to be here, another day. To wake up knowing that all my mishaps–was simply my beginning and most definitely NOT my ending. I’ve realized that it took walking alone to discover who (I) was on the inside, and not see myself for what “People” described me to be. It was a struggle to wake up to little, to no phone calls each day. Having a girls day out with myself, shopping around for shoes; just me, myself, and I. I’ve fell in love with myself all over again. Loving who (I) AM, and embracing who I’m becoming. HERE I AM. Troyniesha Terrance, bold, unashamed, and unafraid to walk into my new life….my new beginning, my clear, uncluttered future. Surrounded by endless possibilities, and free from all drama. 

 

*HERE I AM; 21, and STILL STANDING. BY GOD’S GRACE THROUGH MY FAITH; I WILL WIN THIS RACE.

-Ms. Spicy Reflections-**Don’t think that walking alone is a bad thing. Sometimes you have to be alone to get to know YOU again. It’s so easy to lose yourself in other people’s issues, etc., and completely neglect YOU. However, everything that God does is for your good, although, you may NOT see it all the time. Use this journey to TELL YOUR STORY. We all have a story to tell. Write your own, use what you’ve been through to help the next person. You are somebody, you are someone that the world need’s to know. Your story will help millions. Get going!!!-You have a story to tell. 

As always, I leave you with this scripture’

God said it best in Hebrews 13;5 “I will NEVER FAIL YOU. I will NEVER ABANDON YOU.” 

Written in Love,

Ms. Spicy

For Better & Worst…A Heart of Repentance. Part 2

FOR BETTER&WORST…A HEART OF REPENTANCE. PART 2.

 

 

Yesterday I talked about Da Truth (Emanuel Lambert) & his bravery for speaking out about his Infidelity. Today I’m continuing on about how it all became FULL CIRCLE….

Through the Heartache he caused to his Marriage, Ministry, and Family. He still pushed through, and began his road to Redemption; him and his wife received counsel from a Christian Marriage Counseling Team-which lead to their Ultimate HEALING, and DELIVERANCE in their Marriage. During the Interview I listened to; his wife (Nicole Lambert) said that when her husband went astray, she had to pray for him as his Sister, Friend, & most of all as his WIFE. She poured out her hurt out to JESUS. <– Wow! After it all..she prayed for her husband more than once. Praying for her husband as if that was her BROTHER, Praying for him as if he was just her FRIEND, and Praying for him as her HUSBAND was touching to even hear!

I admire her great strength but she wasn’t strong on her own-her strength came through Jesus. She realized this wasn’t a time to be selfish and just pray for herself to be healed; she poured her Heart out to God to save her husband, and well as her Marriage. Many peopled may have wondered why she stayed after the Hurt, and Betrayel; unless you’ve been there, you’ll never understand. I’ve never been Married but in Nicole’s case; she had every right to fight for her husband and Marriage. The two of them made VOWS before God; therefore, I understand on every level the fight that she was up against. Most of all I admire her for not listening to what everyone said, and fought for her Marriage. The best part about it all was that her husband was equally willing to fight to make it work. They did not throw in the towel.

When their counseling was over; he wanted to do something special for his wife after all that had went on. The couple that counseled them arranged the surprise wedding for her. He surprised her with a Limousine at her job, brought her a dress and accessories. Spread Rose Pedals up the stairs to their house leading to the backyard…& There it all happened. He RENEWED HIS VOWS to her and was Officially RECONCILED BACK to his wife-Once and for All. He was ready for a new start, Redeemed by God’s Grace with a Repented Heart, and a Fire burning in his Soul to preach the message about Christ again. Da Truth closed the Interview with something a pastor said to him; “I ENVY YOU BECAUSE, AT LEAST THERE’S BEEN A RESURRECTION IN YOUR MARRIAGE. I LOOK AT MINE AND THERE’S STILL DEATH.” –(Unknown Pastor)

I say to every Man and Women struggling with forgiving your Spouse(Husband or Wife) or simply struggling to move forward in your Marriage because, he or she has had extra Marital affairs—It won’t be easy but Express your hurt in it’s entirely to God. He will supply you with the Support team that will help you in your Healing process. If your Husband or Wife is willing to reconcile-Go to counseling together (Christian Counseling) or wherever you two feel comfortable. Work on repairing your Marriage; it’s not worth letting go. UNLESS you know in your Heart & God revealed to you that you Married the wrong person; DON’T GIVE UP!!! There’s nothing too hard for God. He’s right there beside you through your Pain; you’re not in this alone. I don’t care how lonely you may FEEL; you’re NEVER ALONE. Lean on God’s strength; that’s what he’s there for. Da Truth’s story is an example of what God can do when two willing Hearts cry out to God for Restoration.

I leave you with this scripture, 1 Corinthians 7:11 KJV “But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried, or be reconciled to her husband: and let not the husband put away his wife”.

*This is a song Da Truth wrote about his Wife- CHERISHED.

Written in Love,
Ms. Spicy

For Better & Worst…..A Heart Of Repentance Part 1.

FOR BETTER&WORST…A HEART OF REPENTANCE. PART 1.

 

This is Da Truth; a Stellar Award winning Gospel Rapper. I first heard about him when I watched a Youtube video of him performing at the Stellar Awards last year-He killed it! I’ve been following him ever since.

I was browsing on the Internet and an article came up about him cheating on his wife in Nov. of 2009. This was a devastating time in his life, and he took his infidelity as a time to draw closer to God, his pastor, and to be reconciled back to his wife. He recently opened up about his infidelity. I love his humbleness, and bravery for acknowledging what so many deny daily….

I listened to a phone interview that he did recently with a site called (YourHeartShape). He said something that gave me a great Revelation. When asked about his infidelity Da Truth said: “I thought he would never do it. I always felt like I was above it. The Bible says in Galatians 6:1 “Dear brothers and sisters, if another believer is overcome by some sin, you who are godly should gently and humbly help that person back onto the right path. And be careful not to fall into the same temptation yourself.” I felt like that was me to the T. I was terrible at restoring such a one, and didn’t realize that was the breathing ground for falling into the same temptation myself. When you become Vulnerable, Puffed up in your own mind, Let your guards down….when you think yourself to be strong, no matter who you are, no matter how long you’ve been walking with Jesus…YOU WILL FALL.”

He said it ALL right there!!! It’s when we get PUFFED UP…thinking it would never happen to us…that’s when it happens. I have never been married so I can’t relate to breaking a vow in marriage but I’ve been in plenty situations where I held my chin high, and walked around thinking certain things would never happen to me. I judged others for their Sins, and without guarding myself; fell right into the same Sin. Instead of judging others and pointing the fingers with the sayings, “I’ll never do that.” or “I can’t believe he or she did that.” Restore your brothers and sisters back to Christ (Those willing to listen), even if not though, at least when you try to help them they’ll never say God didn’t send someone.

I can’t help but relate to Da Truth on this one. I admire the fact that he was MAN enough to admit what he did wrong. At end of it all Da Truth is the prime example of how Jesus can restore us back to our rightful place…even when we THINK we’ve messed up BEYOND RESTORATION. Jesus is a Lawyer in the CourtRoom, Doctor is the Hospital..whatever we need; that HE IS!!!! Jesus make ALL things new..he don’t look at how many degree’s we have, what our “Celebrity” status is, what our skin color is…He’s a RESTORER TO ALL; and DA TRUTH know all about it : )

As I always say, I don’t care what the situation is. Whatever you did DON’T MATTER when you bring you God a Heart of Repentance….Psalm 51:17 NLT”The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a BROKEN and REPENTANT HEART, O God.” Although, there’s consequences for our actions; the Pain won’t last long. Trust me I’ve experienced the Guilt that floods your Heart and Mind beyond the road to recovery…BUT GOD…I know the tears soak your pillow in the Wee hours of the night..BUT GOD, The Hurt that seems unbearable..BUT GOD..can Turn it ALL around & grant you Peace that Surpasses all understanding in the MIDST of your situations.

I leave you with this quote from this song Da Truth have called…The Whole Truth.
“I felt dead and lonely, only God knows; but Jesus came and Breathe life on my Dry Bones. I know a lot, knowing a lot is not wrong, But now it’s all about application like the I-Phone. I got hang Up’s like dial tones, But Jesus hung up & die So..NO CONDEMNATION that’s my consolation. Am I still Guilty??…NOT A CONVERSATION.” –Da Truth.

*This is a video of his song featuring the lyrics you just read.

You call follow him on twitter @truthonduty
To listen to the full interview here’s the link http://www.dasouth.com/news/24-news/7516-da-truth-and-wife-nicole-talk-love-life-after-adultery

Written in Love,
*Ms. Spicy
To be Continued….

Featured Post

Hi everyone,

I wanted to make you all aware that one of my posts will be featured on my fellow Christian Chick Brienna DuRousseau website. It was a pleasure to be asked to be a guest blogger on her website. Today is the day it’s being posted. Go check out my post & her blog..her blog is composed of REAL -life issues that us Christian Chicks face on a daily basis. From Love, Sex, Relationships & soo many more topics are definitely Unapologeticly explored.

What I love about her blog is that she’s #Unashamed & #NotFearful to talk about these problems that we face DAILY. Just as her site has inspired me on MANY occasions; I’m certain that you’ll be equally touched as I was.

From one Christian chick to the next..or even a (Guy) go show her some love.
*The website is. Curiouschristianchick.com

Written in Love,
Ms. Spicy

Ms. Spicy Up-Date

Hello My fellow bloggers and followers.

I pray that all is well with each and everyone of you. Once, again I just want to take the time out to Thank ALL those who visit my blog everyday; whether, just too look, comment, or simply obtain some inspiration as Christ continues to inspire Me.

I’m doing great as of this moment; God is still good; AS ALWAYS. Though sometimes the storms of life come to TRY and knock me down; Jesus is still beside me pushing me to go forward. Although, I don’t always get everything right, don’t always speak when I’m supposed to, don’t always be quiet when I’m supposed to, don’t always dot my I’s and cross my T’s; Jesus is still with me through it ALL. I’m standing by his strength.
I say to all of you…no matter what the circumstances may be in your life at this present moment; STAND on Christ’s strength. If he put a special song in your spirit-Sing it until you feel something changing, If there’s a special scripture that encourages you-Quote it until you feel Chains being broken…whatever his source is to give you more strength to go on-Use it!!!!!

Mine is a song-This song his been encouraging me through my situations lately—Deon Kipping-What’s coming is better. This song constantly confirm the fact that what I’ve been through is nothing compared to what’s coming.—It’s Greater, It’s Better, It’s Life Changing…

I leave you with this scripture…

Hebrews 10:23 NLT “Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for GOD can be TRUSTED to KEEP his PROMISE.”

Where you are is about to CHANGE..continue believing; he won’t FAIL YOU.

Written in Love,

Ms. Spicy

Deal with it-Or it will Deal with you

 

 

In this day and age people are not educated about the Sub-Conscious Mind. Believe it or not it has an effect on your life, and if you don’t deal with the things you try so hard to “Brush Off” “Swat Away”, or even force yourself to “Forget About”….well shall I say the things you THINK you “Brush Off” “Swat Away”, or “Forget About” It all gets stored away in our Sub-Conscious mind only to come back up in our DREAMS while were sleeping.

Have you ever went through a tough situation and tried to talk it over with family members or close friends but only talked about it for that moment and not until it was completely out of your system? Due to the situation hurting you, you forced yourself to “Forget About” it? Whenever the thoughts come up, you “Brush it Off”, and continue on with your day? Only later wondering why the situation is coming up in your dreams night after night, or every other night? You think to yourself, “It’s been about 6 months to a year since this happened. Why is this still on my mind?” ….The reason it’s coming up months or even a year later is because you haven’t TRULY dealt with the situation in its entirety. Rather, you “Brushed it Off” “Swatted it Away” and forced yourself to “Forget About” it. This kind of problem resolution is not healthy because, we only create a bigger problem. I’m a witness, and just recently TRULY dealt with my issues that were stored so far away in my Sub-Conscious.

I look at the Sub-Conscious mind as a tiny storage place for the things in life that we choose to “Brush Off” “Swat Away” or force ourselves to “Forget About” without TRULY ADDRESSING the issue or issues. I was tired of my going to my God-Mother explaining my dreams to her only to hear her say, “Ms. Spicy you’re not dealing with your emotions.” ME-, “I can’t think of anything that I’m holding back. I talk to you about everything.” HER-, “I keep telling you it’s your Sub-Conscious.”….Apparently what I was doing was not working; just talking about it briefly but not until I healed from it (This is the way that I get over things; I must TALK about it). I prayed to the Lord and asked him to reveal to me EVERYTHING in my Sub-Conscious that I was refusing to deal with. I wanted him to show me what I hiding in there. The things that I “Brushed Off” and forgot about. That same night I went to sleep, ALL of my dreams revealed just that—The things that I “Brushed Off”, “Swatted Away”, and forced myself to “Forget About”…all came out through my Sub-Conscious Mind.

If you’re like me-Tired of the repeat of dreams bringing up issues you “THOUGHT” you dealt with. Tired of living life “Brushing Off” issues, and is ready to “Face” them. Tired of pretending that you’re over something that still lies deep within your heart…Today is your day to be set free! Whether you said, “I Forgive them for hurting me.”-But deep down you still had a little resentment towards them. Or maybe you were hurt so bad that you left a relationship and never wanted to give thought about that person or the situation ever again and you forced them out of your mind…

It don’t matter what it is; big or small. It’s time to DEAL with those issues. Make a declaration that you will NOT start 2013 like 2012 holding back your emotions, tucking it under the rug. This is your year of Release, Refreshing, and Renewal.

Ask God to reveal to you ALL that you’ve tucked away. DEAL with those issues. If he or she hurt you-Confess it! If they did you wrong-Say it! It’s when we Acknowledge those things, we TRULY get healed, set free, and delivered from it. Then we enter our healing stages of forgiving others, and ourselves. (My method is talking. Whatever your method is, use it! If you have to exercise and talk to your guy or girl (friends) do it!  If we pretend that it did not hurt, or pretend that the situation did not affect us when in actuality it did-That’s when it comes back up through our dreams.

Mark 7:20 And then he added, “It is what comes from INSIDE that DEFILES YOU”.     If we’re not careful to confront those issues lingering in our Sub-Conscious, we could be polluted on the inside with Un-ForgiveNESS, BitterNESS, Hatred etc. Deal with the inside of you so that the light of Jesus Christ can shine from the inside out.

This is a great scripture to deal with this issue.

* Psalm 19:12-14 (NLT) 12 How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart? Cleanse me from these hidden faults. 13 Keep me from deliberate sins! Don’t let them control me. Then I will be free of guilt and innocent of great sin. 14 May the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.

Written with Love

*Ms. Spicy

2012 Blues-2013 Prosperity

 

 

I’m sure many of you can agree with me when I say that the year 2012 have been filled with every kind of Joy, & Pain! It went by very quickly. It’s amazing how much your life can change in just a matter of one day, let alone an entire year. Through the Good, Bad and the Ugly! I’m grateful that I’m STILL HERE! Still Standing, Still Breathing, Still Living! If nothing good came out of your life in this year–At least you’re STILL HERE!! That’s enough to praise God right there.

There’s many negative things I could talk about that went on in my life this year! But-I choose to focus on the positive things that will be birth in my life this New Year! This year will be filled with Prosperity of all kinds. I Decree and Declare that all the prophesies that’s been spoken over my life will Manifest itself through my Obedience. & I Decree/Declare the same thing for whoever’s reading this blog. In this last day of the year 2012. It’s the perfect day for you and I to RELEASE all the Hurt and Pain that’s been blocking us of our blessings. FORGIVE all those whose hurt us. It’s impossible to move forward in anything without forgiving those who let you down, or caused you pain of any sort. PRAY the Lord Renew our mind, and REMOVE all impurities from out lives so that we can RECEIVE all that God said is ours.

Don’t move on without RELEASING, FORGIVING, and PRAYING; so that you can RECEIVE!!!!!!!!!!

It extremely important that we do these in things so that we can start a New Year fresh! I was watching the Great Bishop T.D. Jakes preaching online yesterday and he said something the caught my attention. He spoke about the New Year. He was explaining that we could celebrate the new year all we want-It means nothing if we move into 2013, with a 2012 MINDSET!!!! That was powerful. It was an on time word because, I’m currently reading the Talented Joyce Myers book #BattleField of the Mind. It’s teaching me that everything that happens in our life isn’t always other people; it’s US. It all starts in our MIND!!! If we’re not careful to cast down the negative thoughts, it will grow and blossom into something bigger–That’s when the problem gets deeper. If we cast down the thoughts immediately, we’re denouncing the Enemy and letting him know that we won’t give him room into our minds.

This year has taught me a lot. As I look back over the last 2 Years of my life. Many people thought I wouldn’t make it this far-BUT I DID! Many people thought certain things wouldn’t happen that God said would–IT DID!!!  The Enemy wanted me dead a loooong time ago-BUT I’M STILL HERE!!!!! Standing by God’s Grace, and his Mercy!

Through all the negative that has happened in our lives–Let’s be Thankful for LIFE! Praise God that he woke you up! Praise God for your Health. Praise him because of his Faithfulness despite of our Dis-Obedience. Praise God because, he didn’t let you die in the wilderness. Praise God because of his protection. There’s MANY things we have to be Thankful for.

I will leave you with this Scripture

Phillippians 4:8 NLT “And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of PRAISE.”

 

Written in Love

*Ms. Spicy